Yesterday wasn’t the best of days. It started with some volatility and evolved into a full day of edginess. I dodged many a smiles from my face yesterday and went to bed at about 50% recovered. I like to be around 90% before bed on a days like these but sometimes the vibe sticks like glue. It’s a new day today, a reset. That’s how I approach my moods now. Not too long ago this fickle fuck funk would stick with me for a while.

Not an end of the world situation, not even close in fact in the grand scheme of things it shouldn’t even be ranked.

But

It would stick to my head for some time and I’d let it accumulate.

New day

New vibes

Better Chad

My face gets tight, shoulders taught. I get so high strung that I twang when I walk. If you were one of the handful of people who came in the deli you could feel it as soon as you walked in. I’m the first face everyone sees at the deli. Two women turned and walked out. I don’t think it had anything to do with my energy broadcast but it wouldn’t have surprised me.

I also didn’t wake up with a hangover. Sometimes I feel like that’s how my mood accumulated over the my old bad days. Hangovers were the reminders and remnants of yesterday’s mood. Since I was hungover for about 4 years in a row I think you get it.

I got it

Turns the page

Corner

New day

I had a bad day. The days previous to that day were amazing.

Today will be amazing and the next few that follow will not disappoint.

I no longer allow the bad ones to accumulate

It’s always work man. It always is

I flattened that flunk before it could get fat. Fuck it

I’m better than I used to be. It’s like rebuilding an old car that needed a lot of work and attention. You know how old cars can be. You get the rusted holes repaired, shiny new paint job, you’ve taken the engine completely apart piece by piece and put it back together again. Upgrade the downgrades, check under the hood one more time and take it out for a drive. You forgot to install a new thermostat and your radiator overheats and blows 3 miles down the road. You got that car looking good, sounding amazing and brand new tires to kick

But

It’s still an old car. There will always be an older part you’ll need to replace or shore up. The other fix would be to go buy a brand new car and well, that’s just not an option for me. I’m a curated 71’ Pinto. I wanted to be a Camaro or maybe a 2 door Bronco.

I’m still running better than I used to. That’s what it’s all about. Tried to fight the current yesterday and almost drowned but still no old Chad was found.

*wipes brow

Beach Boys – Good Vibrations playing in my headphones 🎧

Noted

Those vibes are allowed to accumulate. Like fun magnets on your fridge.

I’ll be perched on a mountain soon. In my element. Weather be damned.

Toodles ☮️