I’ve been writing but not posting lately.

I’ve been in and out of Facebook the last few weeks. I’ll pop in and check some work stuff, check my profile and ghost. I don’t put much attention on the notifications if it’s not necessary and go about my business.

It’s refreshing. I have a handful of people on here that I enjoy keeping up with so deletion of the app is not quite there yet but at least I’m not scrolling anymore.

It also gives me idle brain time which is precious to me. I like to sit in stillness and silence. One of the many benefits of camping. Took a little break up in Glenville lake area Sunday night. Paddled around the lake, meditated on top of my truck and read a few pages from two books. Later that evening I dabbled in a little psilocybin on a full blood red moon eclipse. This moon, if you’re into that type of thing, is a moment of release. This would be my second and probably last little trip of the year. I enjoy my sleep and when you take mushrooms there won’t be much to sleep about. They can be exhausting. One your brain is releasing serotonin like rapid fire. If you’re sitting still you’ll become aware of yawning every 30 seconds. Your breathing isn’t regulated. No you won’t die by any means but you get caught up in the moment and forget to breathe normal. Don’t worry your body will let you know when it’s happening.

I did a healthy dosage probably more than necessary but I’ve always been a go big or go home guy. Did my thing, took a walk around the campground and watched the lake waves vibrate while the sun settled over the horizon. Walked along an extremely green trail that runs along the lake and touched some trees. Once I got back into camp I stared into the campfire coals and talked to the spirit of a dragon. Smoke came out from its eyes and nostrils while we conversed. We had a chat about some things that I’ll keep to myself.

If I told you what we talked about you’d think I was crazy. Do I really believe in dragons? Can’t say how much I do but the conversation was interesting.

Climbed back up in my tent to settle in for the night and let the mushrooms stew. And they did. It took about 6 hours to come down. Psilocybin is amazing but it’s exhausting when you do a healthy dosage. It lingered a little longer than I anticipated. Have you ever seen Young Guns where they do peyote? I was a combination of all four as far as the experience goes. I didn’t quite hit Dermot Mulrony chasing the giant chicken around but I was close. It made for an interesting night.

First 2 hours? Solid 10/10. The next 4 not so much. A full blood moon is nothing to be trifled with. I kept zipping up my windows so I could get some sleep. The moon lit up my whole tent. Each time I zipped them up the moon made me unzip them back down. We did this 4 or 5 times before I gave up. My brain took me around the matrix for a bit and that’s enough chat about that little trip.

I’ll probably skip the next blood moon. I’m fine. I’ll be interested in the upcoming downloads should they come. I already feel a bit sideways.

Your mind can go for a wild ride on this vibe.

Watched a movie last night. Just your typical drone of an action movie where the hero kills 100 people to save one. Halfway through my brain sort of said “what are we doing here bud?” It never changes. Movies don’t try anymore and it looks like this guy doesn’t resonate with mass casualty stories anymore. It’s all around me in real life and here I am watching it to dissociate from real life.

I think I’m done with these things. Done with a lot of things lately. Maybe the moon is pushing me to release. Maybe it worked.

I have coffee dates with my daughter once a week. We go to Starbucks (it’s right by our house). She has her little breakfast sandwich and I have my coffee and take in the moment with a big fat smile on my face. I’ll never take these situations for granted. Today is that day.

Life is beautiful. I’ll stew on these as an old fella doubt I’ll be thinking about charcuterie boards.

Family and fire pits make me smile.

I’m gonna squeeze as many of these vibes as I can while I can.

Peace and elbow grease.